Those 4 days at Kids E. was so funjoyful, it's the first time when the time wasn't all so draggy, and no, i actually didn't feel like going home how i usually want to. Prolly it's because I am assisting Dinah, so the entire thing was not as serious as how I need to be if it was to be another teacher I don't know of. I've learnt of many sad stories behind those innocent smiles, cries and laughters of some children. Parents, seperated and divorced. Parents, faraway, haven't been seeing their child for a long time. I am, very sad and heartbroken for them. I can see from their eyes, how much they miss their lost parents, how much they longed for the warmth and hugs, how much they want to look into their parents' eyes and say, "Papa" or "Mama".

On another note, Clementi (his nickname from me) was crying continuosly one of those days and we realized he was running a fever. I carried him in my arms, and he kept struggling and screamed, "Mama take me!" My tears almost fall, I don't understand, but can feel the pain he may be feeling. I took him to a corner with big cushions and put him to bed. I pat him and stroke his forehead to make him go to sleep. Yet, he suddenly opened his eyes, turned to my direction, look at me and said sweetly, "I like you." At that moment, feelings that overwhelmed me were undescribable. I quickly went down to him, kissed his forehead, and whispered into his ears, "I love you." and he gave me the smile that always make my day. I really love you, Clement. Be good, Teacher Maxine will see you again on friday ya? (:

It's weird and contradicting how much I don't want to work in a childcare, yet I want to be attached with these children. I am really sad over the fact that I can't stand working in a childcare. What a statement. But, say I am biased or what, I know I can work and will even love working at Kids E. However, Elaine doesn't need me now, maybe never? And my beloved mentor, I miss you already. Haven't got a chance to talk to you for long because I always had to rush off for fLAIr. I am sorry. Friday, we will chat, catch up, reminisce, hug and all.

I love children. I love my friends. I love you.

Most of my friends around me have started work already, but I am still yes, sort of unemployed. It's not that I don't know what I want to do, I do know but sometimes you just don't get what you want. MOE research have came to a half full stop already, because today is officially my last centre to attend to, but I still have one absent boy to follow up with and the October's Post-test.

Tomorrow till Friday, I will be helping out at KidsE. Farrer Rd from 830-1300. Fyi, that is my yr2 attachment centre and I can proudly announce it's my favourite centre. Will be "reuniting" with my 2 fellow friends from my batch, as well as my daughters and sons, and my beloved mentor, Elaine.

Regarding the gym job I mentioned in the last post, let's just say I could have gotten the job if I hadn't promised Elaine I would help her. Okay you may think I should have been partial enough to weigh the importance of these 2 options; yes the gym job carries more importance if you are talking about the monetary and advancement of it all. Yet for me, I chose to give that up for now and keep to my promise because I need to be reciprocal and responsible..

Elaine has played a very great part in my life tho I've barely known her for three years. She is one of the lady whom motivated and inspired me so much, just like how Nick did. To me, she is not only a mentor, but my friend, my confidante, my advisor, my counsellor (and technically she is one). She was the only mentor who would warm my hands with hers when I was nervous, introduced and treated me to teh-tarik ice cream and Macdonalds, addressed me as "My friend", hugged me goodbye, calls me "This fellow" when I say silly things, advised me on a mentor and friend point of view, says "I miss you" and "Visit me soon" when I sent her random SMSes, and most importantly, gives me the most genuine smile you can ever can from a mentor.

If after reading you guys still don't understand my reason for wanting to help her out as and when she needs me, nevermind. (: I hope you meet someone this special in your life someday and you will get it.

At the same time, I feel nervous too. It's like, entering/trespassing a familiar place with familiar faces whom most probably treats you like strangers now. Contradicting and conflicting. But I promise I will have a good time because I will be assisting Dinah with her todds and she is my yr2 attachment partner, just that now she is being employed as a full-fledged teacher.

Hellavu to me, and to you too. Good night humans!

I have this tendency to forgot and be lazy about updating my blog, what a bad habit. I am here now because I am home with nothing better to do except to wait for my courier delivery (will go more in depth into this later in this post). Also, Ling has been bugging me to update because of somethings, so I need to blog.
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Some things that happen for nearly the past one month:
- Escape from CNY in Singapore to Batam. Stayed in Harris resort, did Milk Spa which supposedly to be Chocolate Spa I think the person heard wrongly.
- First ever Zoo trip with Ling and Daryl. Had lotsa fun tho someone nearly spoilt my day. *Hrm, ling you know who i'm referring to ya*. Thanks to bro who took lots of professional photos for us, love them!
- 3CO1's first ever BBQ cum graduation gathering. Tho turn up rate wasn't great, but it was a great night for those who came! Hope you guys enjoyed yourselves, and oh, EZB.COM provides GREAT service! Very efficient,helpful, and most imptly YUMMY food! *3 thumbs up for ezb.com.
- Couch-potatoed at silly pig's house for a few days, had silly pig cooked for me. *beams
- Dimsum and Balcony v-day with gf, silly pig and 3 other of the usuals.
- Watched "Kungfu Dunk" with silly pig at Vivo Gold Class movie theatre! Heaven in there, treated like queen. (:
- Went to watch Chingay 2008 live for the first time with silly pig! Had some issues with ticketing but we got in successfully. Chingay was really gay! ((:
- Finally met up with my 31st councils, only a few turned up tho but had such fun time. As always, we are like bangalas, sitting in the middle of the bridge drinking and playing cards.
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That's some of the memorable endeavours bah, I've got stm, can't expect to rmb alot tho. =X

Recently, have (or am going to be) been occupied with FlAIR. I've signed up with my lecturer, to be a research assistant for MOE. Details of what is the research bout, I'd better not reveal here since it is quite confidential. Anyways, will be going into various childcare centres from tmrw onwards to conduct somethings with the children. Wish me all the best! and oh, the courier delivery is some forms needed for the research, and it JUST reached me. haha ((:

On the other hand, I went for an interview this morning at UE square for a fitness trainer job at a kids' gym. The environment seems good, with quite friendly trainers. The interview went on good I supposed. Shall wait for the lady's call for further arrangements.
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Am gonna call hearts up soon since I can meet her already. And to silly pig, I hope everything will be well okay? You'll be fine, safe and sound. *hugs.

Alrights, I gotta go off now. Hope my post ain't too boring. Till I post again, seeya!

<3

As long as stars shine down from heaven
And the rivers run into the sea
'Til the end of time, forever
You're the only love I'll need
In my life, you're all that matters
In my eyes, the only truth I see
When my hopes and dreams have shattered
You're the one that's there for me

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

Chorus:
Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day
I'd be afraid without you there to see me through
Imagine me without you
Lord, you know it's just impossible
Because of you
It's all brand new
My life is now worth while

I can't imagine me without you

When you caught me I was falling
Your love lifted me back on my feet
It was like you heard my calling
And you rushed to set me free

When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you


When I found you I was blessed
And I will never leave you
I need you

I can't imagine me without you